insomniac photo shoot

whipped out the SLR that i don't know how to use properly last night. this is what i got:






and my personal favorite:

time

as we all get older, time just seems to move faster.

the years are starting to fly, and i can't even imagine how fast it will feel when i'm 80. every year an even smaller fraction of my life.

but life feels really good right now...
i can't explain it.
it just feels good.

Harajukyuuuu

WHATTUPPPP...

my friend Meiko's music video was finally posted on http://www.perezhilton.com! which means, i can finally put up MY video blaaahg about the video! so...here it is...hope you enjoy the shit out of it.

magic

the last few weeks have been intense. they were some of the most gratifying days of my life, and some of the most stressful.

but i did it!

in a few short weeks i somehow managed to take an idea and turn it into a real production. and not only that, but i found the most amazing team of people i could ask for to do this on a shoestring budget. i mean, it wasn't cheap...and i'm no moneybags right now, but i believed in the project, so i was willing to go for it.

all in all, i have learned soooo much about producing. one thing i realized is that there is always potential for something to get fucked up. for example, i lost location after location after location until finally finding a PERFECT spot downtown, literally 2 days before the shoot. S-T-R-E-S-S-F-U-L.

but i pulled it off. i wanted to jump right into editing, but i had to go up to my cousins wedding in San Fran, which turned out to be the perfect mini-vacation before jumping headfirst into this whole post production process. whew!

so...it will be put up as soon as it's done, my pretties...as soon as it's done...muah hahaha...

i will also be editing a few other vlaaaahgs to put up between now and then...wohoo!

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SUP

hey, relax

just the other day, my girlfriend told me that they say it's healthier when people are total sluts in their sex dreams. and i realized that i am a total fucking PRUDE in my dreams. beyond prude. i'm like permanently programmed in PG-13. i mean, i don't even feel comfortable calling them sex dreams; they are THAT far from being anything that's even remotely exciting. they're totally prepubescent dreams. it's like i'm still an 11 year old dreaming about Uncle Jesse in Full House. heh...that was such a good dream.

plus, this makes me realize there must be something deeper holding me back. some constructs created from my childhood or something. and maybe it's holding me back in life too...in my enjoyment of life and in achieving my goals. and THAT, people, is no good. no good at all.

me having dreams tamer than what they can show on network television is pathetic and i'm going to do something about it! so i'm going to try lucid dreaming again. i had this book in high school that taught me about it, and after some practice, had really focused my mind to recognize when i was dreaming. a few times i was able to stay asleep (i would often wake up) after the realization.

i am putting my intention out there to relax and have more fun in my dreams. why deny? no. i'm TAKING what i want...i mean, it's a freaking dream!!! nothing can go wrong -- it's all in your head! everyone should try this!!

I think this will be a good exercise in life too. you know...the going after what you want part. not...being a slut. necessarily.

preview

i just finished shooting Meiko's music video for her song Under My Bed. it was a really fun shoot! i am definitely going to video blog about it, but i need to edit and all that, so in the meantime, here are a few photos of from the shoot...

amayleeca is so multee culturlal

this is the kia spot i did for korea run only. it's.....cute! if you're REALLY into it, there's another one titled Kia Soul CM-2. oh those koreans!

updates

OK. i haven't posted anything about career in a while, so here's an update. the commercial world has been slow as hell, but i finally had an audition the other day for hyundai and i have the callback tomorrow. yay!

next on this list...you will hear more about this when i'm getting closer to actually shooting, but i am developing a secret project that should be very fun. it's a spoof video and i am really really excited about it. heeeee...

let's see, what else....i recently worked background on a film called greenberg starring ben stiller and jennifer jason leigh. i hate background work, but my friend anna is assistant to the director, noah baumbach. she asked if i would do it because noah doesn't like hiring career background actors (i don't blame him). since i like to have any reason to not work my bar job, i said yes and it turned out to be super fun. it was this party scene with a bunch of young people, so after four nights on the shoot, it was like summer camp ending and maybe even a little sentimental. i was also spoiled and got to have a room to hang out in during all the downtime. oh man, i would have pulled my hair out if not for that room. it must be noted that the crew on this film was AMAZING. it was definitely a learning experience to watch them work. it was also nice to see a director allow actors to do 15 takes on an important scene...emotionally draining i'm sure, but how great to have that opportunity to really sink it. i'm eager to see the film once it's finished.

lastly, i'll be making a cameo in my friend Meiko's music video. we shoot on wednesday and i'll be playing a harajuku girl. ha! should be really fun. i'm totally gonna vlog about it.

that's it for now!

spoiled rotten

i am so spoiled. i am so grateful for everything i have -- all the amazing people in my life, the opportunities that come my way, and the colorful days. there is no where else i want to be, and nothing else i want to do. if i could, i would kiss the hell out of life. fuck yeah.

yep, shot another one

this is my latest installment of the good ol' video blog. rather than post the taco bell job up, which i was worried i'd get in trouble for, i'm gonna put this one up. yep, that's right. i just shot another one. i think it's better anyway. so...enjoy!

not gonna be scared

i cannot claim to be very good at making videos yet. so much to learn. and so much apprehension to get over. so i'm forcing myself to just DO it. put it out there. i know there will be haters. but some people will get it too. just like sometimes i hate shit that i see out there, but sometimes i LOVE LOVE LOVE stuff out there for whatever the reason. with that out of the way, here is another little thing i made. i see it as a video poem of sorts. at first i thought it was really cheesy...but there are enough people in the world who might judge me that i shouldn't be one of them.

Sunday Venice

my really really good friend matt has a sweet pad in venice and he has a little army of bikes. biking around venice and santa monica to go eat lunch or catch the sunset on the pier is an amazing way to spend a day in LA. i had an audition in venice that morning, so we rode to eat lunch, and since it was so windy, we decided to battle the weather and make it to the end of the pier. it might not look so severe in the video, but it was damn intense fighting the wind and sand.

glitching and moaning

i was sitting around yesterday with my isight on record, having a little heart to heart with MYSELF like an idiot. damn computer glitches. so instead, you get THIS:

Booked It!

Quick update: I booked the taco bell spot! wohoo! So, stay tuned for the next video blog installment about the gig! It shoots a week from today, so hopefully I'll have the video up by the end of next week!

yo quiero taco bell

hey everybody! here is my second installment of the video blog. yesterday i had a callback for a taco bell commercial. i can't say who, but there's a pretty big athlete in the spot, which is neat. to shoot this video, i just used my point and shoot canon, and the sound quality is terrible, i apologize. but, i just bought this little digital video recorder and maybe that will be better for future installments. this was really fun to make...i dicked around with imovie for the first time....hehe...dork. i love this shit. so...watch it! i hope you like it!

OH MY GOD, I'M A DORK